Derailing – that moment when you notice that something that has happened has just jumped in the way of a lovely patch of motivation you have been going through.  The sinking feeling in the tummy when you feel disillusioned about something that swipes you back into an old pattern of useless behaviour.  You know the score.

I was talking to a mate today about ‘derailing’ while trying to attain fitness and the question arose in my mind; inevitably, of how I derail and in what area’s of my life this derailment takes place.

So here goes.  Where do I start? there are so many ……  one such derailment/demotivating scenario of mine is as follows:

I find myself getting all wound up over world events – especially health services, nutrition & peoples lack of taking responsibility and relying on chemicals, Chemtrails over our heads, and the perceived War on Terror and the Wests perpetual wars on anyone that doesn’t tow the line, and not going into too much detail, specifically the plight of the poor Palestinians.  I mean look at the world – it’s horrendous!  So much suffering.  Bastards !!! … that sort of thing – you know?  Derail/Demotivate time soon follows – as I feel hopeless and helpless to make any true changes for the good in the world.  I occasionally rant on my FB page Status Updates, although I never get into debates as debate has no place in my space of existence anymore due (in full) to feeling at peace with my research and beliefs and not needing to discuss them any more and (in part) to the nature of debate so often being not so much about the issue in question, but the debaters ego’s need to disagree or express their knowledge on the subject (the trolls online prove this one time and time again).  But the issue of horror’s on the world’s stage still winds me up – ergo I’m not really, fully in the head space I hope to be – that being ‘allowing hard truths to pass through me, not effecting me, upsetting me, causing my vibrations to get a bit low’, etc.  What I am doing is derailing from a nice, relaxed state of ‘being’ into a worried, drama fuelled, state of being which isn’t very comfortable.  Not every time I post do I feel derailed, but it’s happening more times than I’d like.

The fact that I allow things to wind me up means that I’m missing the point completely and derailing from a state of just ‘being’.

Drama and the Ego really feeds derailment – and I, being human, can get caught up in it – the visceral need to be heard, the anger at Governments, the whole story of the Enslaving of Mankind is often too juicy for me not to dive headlong into and get lost in.  This draws me away from just ‘being’, noticing, acknowledging and sharing information with little effect on my inner peace, and draws me towards anxiety, annoyance, and feeling sad and helpless in a world where so many are so much worse off than me.   All I’m doing is being angry and anger isn’t coming from love – so isn’t the place where the magic happens, and being angry doesn’t change a thing.  Then I feel guilty for stressing as ‘FFS … people out there are dying – and here am I allowing it to mess with my peace of mind’!  How dare I?!?!’  (seeeee – Western upbringing of perpetual guilt = derailment too!).

It all comes back to living in the now.

Eckhart Tolle shares so many wonderful insights on how to keep present, which stops derailment in it’s tracks – no matter what is happening personally to you, or in the world in general.  I highly recommend reading The Power Of Now.  One such thing is right at the beginning of his book, The Power Of Now – in which he offers the idea of imagining you are drawing out of your body and your ‘higher’ body is looking at you sitting/standing there during times of stress/anger/annoyance/drama and just sort of saying, ‘Shhhhhh’ in a loving way – The process of concentrating on drawing out of your body and manifesting the image of you sitting there in detail has the added bonus of distracting you from whatever is effecting you – and by way of tricking the ‘self’ into looking at you (the other you), and listening to reason … the chatter stops.  Derailment stops dead!

It SO works.  So why is it hard to attain for long periods of time?  Well – perhaps, in me, I have not worked hard enough on it – not been fully authentic with myself, and been a bit lazy.  For sure.  It takes practice and taking your eye off the ball for a while means the ego gets noisy again.

Derailment happens in almost every aspect of my existence from time to time – acknowledging this is important to me, but not sticking on the fact that I’ve derailed is much more important to me as it can turn into a not so merry ‘Merry Go Round’ of, ‘Shit – I derailed, oh NO! I’m annoyed at myself – oh Crap!  I’ve stopped functioning well on a project.  I’m angry at myself … Shit – I derailed ….’ and on and on ad infinitum.

Here’s the thing – when I’m really living in the now I find I can care, and be action bound regarding the horror of world events but am not so wrapped up in them that I feel, as I said, low vibrational & also I don’t bother so much about other peoples perception of the world, as it’s their life timeline and we are all in different evolutionary growth patterns, some further ahead and some perhaps not.   I definitely think there is something in the idea that ‘News’ and Wars keep the populous distracted and feeling low therefore not functioning to full potential – but that’s another Blog, my lovelies… this one is a stream of consciousness in which I hope to remind myself and reach out to others in turn regarding the importance of not letting ‘stuff’ keep us from our peace and harmony – to remind us that we derail as we are human, but we needn’t.

The one I mentioned at opening – Weight loss derailing … that bane of our time, which is all nonsense really as when fully living in the NOW weight, twisted self perception, media pressure (aimed at our kids or the less conscious) become irrelevant (Too bloody right they do) and any extra weight falls off us anyway.  Not that weight matters as far as looks go.  Being over weight only matters within a health context – I add that incase I’m accused of being fattist (if only you could see me now).  Weight loss derailment is well known. In the great big scheme of things looks mean absolutely bollocks all – but boy are they a major reason for people to de-rail!

The odd one to me though is health derailment … derailing while making a pact with ‘self’ to eat consciously for the most important reason – that of our health.  I have done this for years.  Not any more mind !  Now that one is a right doozie.  As our system when not eating healthily is basically trying to kill itself – that is a big call !  But same applies – it’s easy to listen to our ego chattering away, ‘Oh – eat the sugar for fucks sake… Baked goods taste great – what is the harm?  It’s easier to grab a butty wrapped in plastic packaging than prepare a meal … GO OOOONN – you know you want tooooooo!’. Ahhh – ego. SHHHHHHHH! the fuck up!  Yes it’s easy to listen to ego – but it’s far easier than we realise; once the habit is formed, in the long run to ignore it’s snidey whisperings.   We derail often through issues not faced and dealt with, or lack of the knowledge that we are in control of ourselves, or laziness.  I am learning to listen to my body so much more of late, and eating consciously is a habit that I can’t afford to lose.  I have nailed this one through necessity – forced to take control of my health so the ego is shutting up about this derailment .. FINALLY!!!  It’s proved to me (once again) that living presently is really easy – it’s just a decision we make in the time it takes to bink ….

My thoughts on derailment are this – If we are present and not derailing we work better not only in day to day issues but can be more efficient and less emotional in the helping of others.  By derailing we are very much immersed in ourselves – and from this standpoint can not be of use to others.  It’s all basically fear isn’t it?  Drop the fear and ego shuts up, and derailment doesn’t last long – or best case scenario never happens at all.  Now wouldn’t that be something?

When I feel I’m derailing I snap back into the present by saying – “I chose to live in the present moment.  I chose the path of least resistance.  I chose the best for my higher self.  I chose to be healthy.  Every cell in my body resonates to the perfect frequency for health, vitality and wellness.” and I then ‘Go Do Something Less Boring Instead’… as they used to say on ‘Why Don’t You’.

Till Later My Lovelies,

❤